happiness can be the ultimate painkiller.
on the way to kent ridge today, i felt really happy.
everyone was in a good mood, and just ready to start an excursion.
the entire class just played idiot on the trip, like we always do.
it was great to see everyone acting like their normal, happy selves.

but on the way back, everyone was engrossed with their phones.
for a while, i tried to play a few games, but i had a terrible headache and so i rested.
lent steven and kenton my phone.

heh. pictures! now that i can upload the pics... i'm addicted!! heh =)






the food steven kindly left out for the ants...
what a kind hearted boy.
HOI, THAT WAS MY OREO!










our favourite sweety siying, grumily expousing the greatness of jigs... in an attempt to finish the damn chips... =)












a blurry pic... it was the sandwich steven kindly gave me... MY ASS, NO, HE'S NOT GENEROUS.
HE DIDN'T WANT.
hoi. the ham sandwich was nice hor...










steven, drinking replenishing fluids...
we all drank from the same bottle...
eh, not all like steven hor...
we POUR into our mouths...












freaky image...
heh.
what do you think it is?
whooooo...




haha. i LOVE my class... =)

today was one of the best and most fun days ever!! =)
had befrienders... daryl and i stood outside the hall...
he stood there for an hour imitating a lamppost.
haha. no offense daryl. nice offering, by the way... =)

lindsay, nat, tania, mell, jon, daryl, me... erm... anyone else? we were walking around...
cause we weren't sure where to go...
all confusion caused by mell. she said go to hall. [ not hell. HALL. ]

anyway... totally missed the entire youth programme...
we weren't the latest though. chai hwa made a jerky speech.
people kept streaming in and he had to pause everytime the door opened.

haha. next was...
CAPTAIN BALL.
mell and i were looking for our names on the com...
YAY!! i was in the same group as mellie!!
at least, that was what i thought until she said revealed her secret.
she who we all thought was very fit. was.
scared. of. balls. ...-.-

not sure of all the names of those in my team... haha ><".
erm, i know there was hannah, bings, mell, jon, daryl, me... haha. dunno the rest... ><"
first game. won.
second game. lost.
third game, won.

during finals, talked to mell, lindsay and nat...
made fun of a certain egyptian pharoah...

went to singpost for lunch. happy.
so sian of krissbee's food.

erm. saw this towel behind mell. thought it was hers...
so used it to wipe sweaty smelly head.
then put on her head.
oops.
found out it was the pharoah's.
oops. sorry mell.

mum called the moment i got off fourteen.
said she was going to singpost.
...
had to walk home to go to a place i had been to less than half an hour ago.
wah lieu.

on hindsight.
should have gone with mell.
then when mom called.
would have been in chapel. and could slowly saunter to singpost. wah lieu.
if only. ah well. there's a chinese proverb that describes this... but i forgot... heh. =)
met li shan at popular in singpost. =)

went tm. ate sakae sushi. yum. i prefer the food in japan though. haha. =)
yup. this has been a long post and a fun day.
ouch. my feet are in agony.

all that's left is the sweet melody of the piano...
the last chords of the finale...
are like music to my ears...
haunting melody of you...

what do you want me to say?
i don't even want you to leave.

i hate this smile.
but i shall keep smilling,
if only so i shall never need to see you again...

you forced me...
to cherish the time left with you...
crushing my thoughts of seeing you everyday...

and i go to sleep in the night...
almost forgetting the one word you said to me...
as if you've never known me...

'goodbye'

update on netball;
we lost. we got fourth position. ah well.
still getting a medal. =)

went to the moral home for the disabled today.
as in mentally disabled.
get what i mean??
makes me feel so privileged to be able to do so many things.
i don't understand why the others were afraid.
there's nothing harmful about them.
in a way, they are less harmful then those with our intelligence.

heh. we did line dancing for them.
and i was the OFFICIAL PHOTOGRAPHER.
muahahahaha! after joshua has been flaunting it in front of my face...
I HAVE SOMETHING TO FLAUNT BACK!!
muahahaha!! okay... i'm so evil... =)

talked to marcus.
heh. i know something he doesn't. =)
almost drove him and jiayan mad wanting to know what it is.
siying knows. =)
hint. something to do with his birthday... =)
heh.

lalalala... in a good mood.
feeling really HIGH!
no, i'm not taking drugs... =)

oh, and TEACHER WANTS ME TO TAKE PART IN SUPERIDOL!!
at first, she asked li hui, mc & me to rap jay chou...
but mc say he sing with winston slow song,
because winston's voice is very high...
haha... =)
and teacher said he can choose that, jay chou, or bu pa bu pa by guo mei mei... =)

lindsay wants me to burn a cd with pictures for her...
should i? =)

frozen. quiet. silent.
standing in solitude.
cut off from the rest of the world.
to some, that may sound like hell.
to others, that may sound like heaven.

which category do you belong to?
to feel in danger, standing on the thin point of fragile ice.
about to splinter in every tiny move you make.
unsure of yourself.
surronded by people you don't know whether you can trust.

expectations crushing you.
fear of failure.
fear of loneliness, and yet,
a strange desire for it.
an urge to feel the pain of sacrifice.

sometimes...
trusting too much...
having too much...
being too contented...
loving too much...
caring too much...
can be the worst you can do.

because, when you lose everything...
you feel, why did i even form these ties,
if all that's going to happen is that i would lose it?

why do i have to leave?
why do i have to be rejected?
why am i the one who has to make the sacrifice?

i'm already gone...
i'm already disappearing...
i'll slowly fade...
gone from your sight...
tell me, is that what you want?

if it is...
then i'm sorry i ever bothered you...
i'll just go...
if that's what you really want...
tell me, do you find me a bother?

lost in solitude,
fear...
betrayal...
death...

everyone is born with their own destiny,
fighting it is a natural born instinct,
and yet, how many succeed?
the strong will be strong.
the weak will be weak.

a desire for love,
a fear of losing it,
i resist,
but can you go through life without love?
yes.
no.
i don't know.
will you tell me?

i shall go eat oreo now.
a random thought...
infiltrating my head after listening to,
'an jing' by jay chou.
the word 'an jing',
means silence,
but to an extent, it has connotations
of solitude, loneliness and melancholy.
and that shall be the title of this post.

i realized i linked vk wrongly. go click on her link and see what happens...=]
decorated like crazy yesterday at her house. la.

was chatting just now.
mc was eating oreo.

THAT brings back memories... =]
to my close friends, i'll give you a hint.
oreo man. heh.

NETBALL!! WE TRASHED THE TWO TEAMS!!
first game; 4-3;
second game;5-0

the second game was agaisnt 6J... THEY PLAYED DIRTY AGAISNT OUR SOCCER TEAM!!
we were winning steadily against the other class...
fantastic saves by the goalie...
the other players were performing as if they belonged to arsenal...
then when they played with 6J, we scored the first goal...
they scored the second, and while arun, our star player was tackling a ball,
A 6J STUDENT PUSHED HIM AND STEPPED ON HIM!!
and the stupid referee didn't even notice...

our soccer team got kicked out today, but we trashed 6J in netball for them...
6C NETBALL SHALL GET FIRST!!

sometimes i wonder.
which is better, ignorance or knowledge?
-
the haziest of connections can sometimes be pulled from nothing.
if you want.
-
if you are good in everything you do,
wouldn't everything be worth doing?
-

blah.
confessions of a damaged brain.

heh. did the BOOGIE FEVER today.
fun. jiayan was scolded by mrs kwek... for sleeping through a speech we heard her make TWICE about the 'transfering of weight' ie. shaking her monstrous hips... heh...
too bad jiayan. not only have you been branded a pig by a teacher who is one herself...
you are apparently from 6B;D;E,
anywhere besides our perfect 6C... =]

passionate teacher takes over...
now, darrrrrlings... isn't this just the most FAB names? come one, say it with me...
BOOGIE FEEEEEEVERRRRRRRR... can't you just feel the lyrical curl of the boogie?
feel the rolling of your tongues when you say feverrrrrrrrr...
now listen closely... steps, darling, are rather complicated.
there are EIGHT eights... count with me...
1;2;3;4;5;6;7;8;
2;2;3;4;5;6;7;8;...
anywayyy, darling, follow the steps with me...
i shall do them for you and tell you the steps...
try your BEST to imitate me later, okay? i KNOW you can do it, darrrrrling...

steps for boogie fever;
[ right leg first ] step; step; step; kick; [ left leg ] step backwards; step step; touch;
[ right leg ] one step out; SHIMMY to the right [ four counts ]; and to the left;
right foot replace; vine to the right [ four counts ]; vine to the left [ four counts ] ending with a TOUCH;
walk in a circle [ eight counts ]; you should end with your weight on your LEFT leg;
right leg forward; transfer weight; [ quick beat; two in one; for FOUR COUNTS ];
the same for the left leg;
step forward, turn, touch, step forward; touch; repeat again;
cross; point; cross; point; cross replace; half turn;
MONTRE quarter circle;
point upwards; weight on RIGHT leg;
point downwards [ sheath ]; weight on LEFT leg; [ JOHN TRAVOLTA MOVE ];

okay. the boogie fever.
if you can't visualize, or do it yourselves; tell me;
i'll give a demonstration;
the dance is REALLY FUN!! =]

THREE posts in one day. i must be really hyper.
oh no, wait, it's after twelve, so this is the first post of a new day.
heh.

tricked Juls yesterday // today, by saying, "there's a dead bird!" to her;
she actually looked up! =]

speaking of tricks, Nat has this fake chewing gum with a dead bug // cockroach...
not many people fell for it... BUT...
mell.
SCREAMED.

I FINALLY DOWNLOADED AUDITION!!
not have to wait for it to load.
feel like killing jiayan...

have a headache now.
it's getting from bad to worse.
hmmm. fall down when i get up from chair or bed more often nowadays.
doctor gave medicine.

well. you know what they say.
when life gives you headaches, take headache medicine!

okay... i'm going dumb...
this entire post has been redundant.
just a way to kill boredom...=]

i've just uploaded pictures from kenton's house. and i breathed onto my finger. it's black now...







ms varsha's famous 'adopted son' steven, posing for us horde of screaming fan girls...













our darling mc, acting like a loner... cool pose, mc, you just gotta work on the socialising abit...














heh. okay, this is SERIOUSLY a nice pose, what was i to do, let it go to waste? hey, the guy has photogenic qualities...!! eh... no narrow mindedness...!!











hmmm... totally innocent? okay, it is, but if i didn't tell you, would you know? this is a sabo pic... i'm a pro at taking them... =]











mc & kenton, racing up to the only seat, in a fight for... i forgot what...
don't they look like monkeys?
heh. a group of monkeys climbing up the ropes in kenton's tree...=]





okay, there are alot more... but can't be bothered to wait for them to upload... lol... too bad... you'll just have to wait till i create an acc on one of those photograph webbies...
then you all can download our movie star poses! =]

today was super fun. went to church. like normal. lol. cg was a bundle of laughs.
as usual. went for lunch at krissbees.
strong wind. we thought God was answering prayers for rain.
then anne pointed out. just because it rained here. doesn't mean its raining in indonasia.
group feeling of stupidity. lol.

took train back with tiffany, auntie grace, melody, and dora.
melody and dora came over. yay!
melody seems to really like my house. =]
played blackjack.
bet with my father's MAH-JONG CHIPS.
wah lieu. heh.

was forced to be banker cause i was winning too much.
lol.
anyone wants to play CARDS WITH ME?
muahahaha. dora was the first bankrupt.
then mel bet all her chips. she won again and again.
but then i won.
in one fell swoop, i took all her chips and won.
teaches you something, doesn't it?

dora, the one with the "deprived childhood" was loving my brother's toy car.
the one you can ride in.
walked them out. =]
super fun!! =]

now. report on yesterday.
went for befriender's. mr dong was LATE.
OI, YOU'RE THE ONE ORGANISING IT.
IF YOU CAN'T WAKE UP, HOLD IT LATER LA!
PEOPLE WANT TO SLEEP EH!
YOU SEND YOUR AUNT TO AIRPORT AT FIVE...
i just fell asleep that time, you know??

then went to bugis with nat, lindsay, and daryl.
ate at yoshinoya. WHAT KIND OF FAKE JAPANESE FOOD IS THAT?
INSULT TO JAPAN!! I HATE YOU!!
daryl ordered the chawanmushi. TWO FIFTY.

one bite and i knew they mixed in the egg yolk, when they were only supposed to use the whites. stupid daryl.
put the egg into the miso soup, and GAVE IT TO ME!!
I WISH CONSTIPATION ON YOU!!
daryl had to go early, after the others nearly killed me with all the girly shops...
help.

went to starbucks with a bottle of sprite and some popcorn.
was afraid they would chase us away, cause we didn't buy anything.
so we took the empty cup from the next table and pretended we drank it.





according to adrielle;
"when cheapos gather, this is what happens"
words of wisdom.
starbucks will do well to remember that =]









random. a shot of the popcorn.
that fattened lindsay & nat.








not a very good picture. abit blurry.
hey, nat was moving, okay? and this was taken from my phone cam.
presenting...
our very own popcorn eating animal lover! =]

poor lonesome cup. we took away it's only companion, the plastic cup. oh well. people always leave. deal with it, my dear cup.

heh. all in all. quite fun except for my tired, overused legs and the stupid haze that RETURNED.

i've alot to say. so i shall say them.

siying & kenton are planning something.
that everyone in our group knows about.
-
i've been on a short fuse.
screaming at everyone, and acting like a total idiot.
-
i've seen my first case of obsession.
it's scary.
how could a single person affect another's mood & life?
you gotta get over her...
your anger over her...
is palpable... it's scary...
-
mc & me spent the entire chinese talking about...
naruto...
i love you sasuke!
thanks for the info, mc...
-
my new boyfriend, fighting with cho hakkai is...
uchiha sasuke...
-
my newest boyfriend...




















winston's pet sheep, called sheepo... =]
-
so. three boyfriends.
sheepo&chohakkai&uchihasasuke... =]

maybe itachi too?

okay... sorry for the cynical post.
comes from obssessing over something that won't come true,
i.e. sasuke & hakkai =]

they say you don't appreciate something until you lose it.
i say you don't realize it's worth till it leaves a gaping abyss of a void.
amounts to the same thing, doesn't it?

they say you want something because you can't have it.
i say you want something, and when you get it, you realize it's worth isn't what you thought it was.
still amounts to the same thing, doesn't it?

human nature. is stupid.
shocks don't come the second you lose something.
they come when you finally realize you've lost something.

having a reflective moment here... sound familiar? no? if not, think march 28 - 3o; & june 14 -17...

memories are useless things. they don't do you any good.
what do they do? they bring up thoughts of a past that is long gone.
irreversible.
you won't be able to change it, you won't be able to go back to it.
you made a mistake.
LIVE WITH IT. if you can't, tell me.
WHAT CAN YOU DO?

it's exhausting. and yet, once you start on the memory lane, there's no going back...
you'll continue thinking about the things that you could have done...
should have done...
hope to go back to...

a big load of rubbish.

and you'll wish you had appreciated every moment of the wonderful time when whatever had been going on...
wishing time would turn back...

but if time could be turned backwards, would you know the value of what's happening, before it's all over?

of course not.

to heed my own advice.
i'm starting to delete a few documents.
no, i'm not

'A shinobi [ ninja ] must always hide his emotions; he must have a heart that does not cry; but put the mission in top priority'
Naruto Episode 19- Shinobi saying 25

okay. naruto aside. i like that saying.
was super tired today so didn't go to school. caught up with some sleep in the afternoon.
haven't been sleeping well the past three days ie. slept at around five all three days.
hmph. whatever. amanda suggested aromatherapy. [ sniffing lavendar? she says sandalwood ]

i had a stomach upset - twice - tonight. help me.
ouch. hmph. alot of people were online. should be happy but.
everyone was yelling at me for staying home today.
i was tired. i had a headache.
stupid.

YOU THINK I DIDN'T WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL?
YOU THINK I WOULD RATHER LOOK AT YOU OR MY GROUP?
DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I LIKE MY FRIENDS OVER ALL OF YOU?

in school, i can be myself. at home, i have to always be on guard, never saying anything that could be stored away, frozen and kept for future arguments. hmph.

oh well. in school, i would rather hang out with the boys than the girls.
the girls will smile in your face and stab you when you turn.
the boys never.
they'll just tell you they hate you in the face.
can't wait for the flea market discussions to start.
priya is pissed cuz she isn't in our group.
bah. our group is the best! varsha, siying, kenton, steven, mc, me.

attending talk with varsha tomorrow.
hmmm. maybe meet at steven's house?
i love sasuke!! hmmm. kakashi not bad either... =]

okay, regret having slept in the afternoon.
somehow one hour of sleep in the afternoon deprives me of three at night.
hmph. exhausted. maybe should go read?
heh heh.

six words.
girls.can't.wear.pants.to.grad.
nooooo. we have to wear. skirts. or. dresses.
nooooo. miniskirts okay. but no micro mini.
allowed to wear any kind of earrings.
also allowing dyed hair. Weeeee! La!

i'm gonna highlight it gold [ wish fulfilled at last; been waiting since march ]
then wear ANKLE length black skirt. and SUPER hight collar white business suit.
muahaha! will look like wearing tux.
rebelling without rebelling.
muahahaha. i rock.

and performed on stage today. the dance 'sway'. weeeeee... i LOVE the spotlight! and stage life!
we messed up the timing twice... first time we ended at different times.
second we were too fast.
in the end, we realized it was because charlyn was going too fast, and varsha, marcus & me were following her... and the rest followed us...

during the last rehearsal, marcus swore. loudly and badly. tsk tsk.
also learnt the dance 'boogie fever' but it's not as fun as 'sway'.
and in 'boogie fever', there's this
JOHN TRAVOLTA
move.
to quote mc; "LAME"

had a dance lesson today with mrs quek. yes. line dancing.
anyone who can imagine me shaking my butt, you don't know me.
quite fun, i guess. BUT. it ain't as easy as it looks.
esp. with the music on [ sway; pussycat dolls ]. super fast man.
first time i tried, its like, super cannot tahan.
then got the hang of it. and it WAS fun.

blah. what am i doing with the com on at two am.
havta TRY at least to go to sleep. blah.
kenton; i love your house; =]
mc; stop acting like a loner;
vk; i'll probably never find the time to link you, but you're still my best bud;
steven; if you pull my shoe off my leg once more, i'll pull your head off your sholders;
siying; you're so sweet & pretty i can't say anything;
shermay; you suck. but you still have such great friends =] you're so lucky =]

lindsay; you weren't there. i wish you were. but you probably wouldn't have withstood the swearing=];

destination- kenton's house; the esparis;


transport- steven's mum drove us to tanah merah; we took the train to pasir ris; then a bus to his house;


company- vk; kenton; steven; siying; mc; me [ timothy was in the car ]


food- grilled chicken foldover [ macs ]; meat replaced with cheese; & fries & coke passed around in the bus while laughing at jokes [ everyone had a straw & the cup was passed around;


game- billiard


CLIMAX- we were playing billiard; while laughing like mad people at dumb jokes; & at vk; siying & steven's [ esp. vk ] LOUSY first time tries; when kenton's SUPER NOT SHUAI brother came in with his friends, challenged us, bounced their basketballs, whacked the security cam; it fell into the upper partition; and we were chased out by the security guard; half an hour later; when kenton's bro TOLD HIM [ idiot ];


ENDING- kenton was held responsible; when his mum called; he told the truth so his brother kena. then we spent the rest of the time stealing kenton's shoes; losing it; screaming; playing; and racing up the ropes; & cursing Quinton [ kenton's bro ]


THINGS WE LEARNT-

[ 1 ] the security guard wasn't working;

[ 2 ] kenton's brother is called CLIFTON; not LIFTON [ vk's mistake & bf ];

[ 3 ] vk was disappointed with Quinton; so she went for [ c ]lifton


the house- WAS SUPER NICE!! A TEN STAR NATURAL LEAFY EUTPIA!!


verdict- ONE OF THE BEST DAYS EVER!!

just realized goo goo dolls sang a duet [ iris ] with avril


i FINALLY managed to copy the songs into my phone; am i; or am i not; an IT whiz? [ exhibit A; plays 'let everything that has breath' at max vol; my ears say ouch ]
weeeeeee! so happy could dance... i did... trust me; you did NOT wanna see i xD


can life get any better?


ummm yeah. the haze. has been bad. but it's clearing up.


to my 'relations'- LOVE YOU MIN LI [ amah ]; LOVE YOU SUNSHINE [ great ahkong ]; LOVE YOU 6D [ bros & sisters ]

weeeeeeee. psle over! lalalalalalala!! outpouring of affection for everyone...


school;

I LOVE YOU 6C-IANS;

I LOVE YOU TPS;


cym;

I LOVE YOU ADRIELLE; SORK CHIN; JACELYN; JUNIE; ANNE; LINDSAY; NATALIE; DANIELLE;

MELLISSA; TANIA; DORA; AMANDA; MELODY; SANDRA; DARYL

I'M NOT GONNA TYPE ALL OUT IF THAT'S WHAT YOU THINK I'M GONNA DO;

if i didn't type your name it doesn't mean i don't love you; it just means you're unfortunate enough to have your name cross my mind after my hands were sian of typing...


if i left you out, just drop a tag to reming me, okay?


yay! psle over!


oh, and i learnt how to pronounce Tania's name;

TANIA [ TEN - ee - ya LIN ]


MUAHAHAHAHA

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