carolling. acapella. superidol.
is it just me or have i been doing wayyyy too much singing recently.
fun but.
never knew singing practise could actually be TIRING.
and they seem to all come under the heading of ACAPELLA.
well, say hi to ms alto.

this is is a quiz that jean sent to me.
apparently its a popular blog thing but she added more questions.
and she said if i dont do it shell never treat me to another b&j.
so here i am, doing the quiz against my will.
this quiz is dedicated to vk, lins, and myself, which is why you wont see our names there .. =)

Name 12 of your friends that you can think of now, then write their names again in reversed order.

01. Tracy
02. Michelle
03. Elizabeth
04. Daryl
05. Meng Chun
06. Kenton
07. Steven
08. Sheen In
09. Mellissa
10. Adrielle
11. Sork Chin
12. Jon
13. Jon
14. Sork Chin
15. Adrielle
16. Mellissa
17. Sheen In
18. Steven
19. Kenton
20. Meng Chun
21. Daryl
22. Elizabeth
23. Michelle
24. Tracy


Q1. How did you meet 10? [ adrielle ]
She's my wonderful fantastic bubbly childish cgl !! =)

Q2. what would you do if you have never met 1? [ tracy ]
If ive never met her, what would i do as she was never around ?
Hahas .. Felt something missing .. a soul mate ? A beautiful friend ? =)

Q3. What would you do if 2 and 6 dated? [ michelle & kenton ]
DIE ?? Shes like three years older than him ? And she cant stand people swearing ?
I'll bet they'll break up in less than a week .. =)

Q4. Have you seen 4 cry before? [ daryl ]
hmm .. i think i have .. i wouldnt remember ..

Q5. Do you think 10 is cute? [ adrielle ]
YES !! in appearance AND at heart .. =)

Q6. How did you get to know about 8? [ sheen ]
hmm .. we were in the same school .. and we both LOVED anime !! =)

Q7. would you ever go on a date with 12? [ jon ]
JON ?? erm .. that sounds SO wrong .. i guess .. the tps date with lots of people ? hahas =)
but hell be in australia soon so thats NOT going to happen =)

Q8. whats 7's fave colour?[ steven ]
wah .. erm .. black or blue or yellow i think .. hahas ..
dunno .. you ask varsha la .. SHES his mother ..

Q9. what would you do if 6 confessed he/she liked you? [ kenton ]
KENTON ?? oh well, thats not as bad as jon ..
hmm .. erm .. tell him .. STOP FOOLING AROUND I KNOW YOURE LYING.

Q10. facts abt 9. [ mellissa ]
shes thin .. shes smart .. shes a fantastic swimmer .. she studies psychology ..
shes prettier than ms universe, her personality is wonderful, she loves me =) ..
SHES A WONDERFUL PERSON LA ..

Q11. who's 4 going out with? [ daryl ]
SHERYL !! HAHAHAHAHAS !! =)

Q12. who is 5 to you? [ mc ]
EH ? a very very good, rather shuai friend who likes initial d, jay chou and anime ?
and who got me addicted to naruto ?
and whom everyone who see his photo think his my bf even though he IS NOT.

Q13. would you ever live with 13? [ jon ]
!!!!!!!!!! ERM !!!!!!!!!! dunno .. YOU TELL ME LA.
sounds so wrong men ..

Q14. is 2 single? [ michelle ]
erm.. as far as i know ? =)

Q15. what do you think about 3? [ elizabeth ]
shes wonderful but abit scary .. =)

Q16. whats the best thing about 5? [ mc ]
erm .. hes WACKINESS. hahas .. everything la.
how do you single out something about a person ? =)

Q17. what do you like about 11? [ sork chin ]
shes wonderful, pretty, responsible .. and has HORRIBLE TASTE IN GUYS !! hahas =)

Q18. Favourite memory with 2? [ michelle ]
playing at the playground .. =)

Q.19. If 16 suddenly died, what would you do ? [ mellissa ]
be sure that it was her reckless driving. be super depressed.
feel like crap. be extremely sad. refuse to accept it. those things .. you know ? =)

Q.20. Its New Year, and 21 & 23 invited you to their house. Whose would you choose ? [ daryl & michelle ]
i would make time for both of course !! =)

Q.21. 17 wants you to shave your head bald. Would you do it for him/her ? [ sheen ]
sheen wouldnt do that, would you sheen ? =)

Q.22. Can you see yourself dating 19 ? [ kenton ]
NO. I KNOW ITS NOT POSSIBLE.

Q.23. 24 offers you something youre sure is drugs. What would you do ? [ tracy ]
slap her on the face and tell her to stop it or i will call the police.
shes too god a friend to lose to drugs.

Q.24. 20 has relationship problems with 14. What would you do ? [ mc & sork chin ]
that would be plain wrong. shes EIGHT years older !!
tell mc that he broke sork chin and bernard up and that he and sork chin
were NEVER meant to be together .. =)

Q.25. Something bad about 15. [ adrielle ]
erm .. a little childish .. and with an UNBELIEVABLY SICK MIND. =)

Q.26. Something good about 17. [ sheen ]
EVERYTHING. HER ANIME OBSESSION, HUMOUR, LOOKS !! EVERYTHING !! =)

Q.27. A dark secret about 22. [ elizabeth ]
ELI HAS A DARK SECRET ? WHY DIDNT SHE TELL ME ?? =)
shes open minded and keeps nothing .. as far as im interested =)

okay. jiayan is dead. too bad for her i got the aggragate to torture her in dhs.
me and winston vs jiayan and ben.
the first thing were gonna do is tell ben some dirty little secrets.
followed by mabel.
and the other jiayan.
then the principle.
and the sc committee members.

and now.
for the truth.
BEN NG IS USELESS.
=)
i can see jy dying.

i wonder. have i been wrong all this time ?
wrong about my own friends, the people who truly care.
all this while, ive been thinking of her as a friend, and yet, backstabbing her in front of you, for your own pleasure.
you threaten me with a loss of our friendship if i did not hate her ..
the lost of our friendship which i once thought was so strong, but was instead fragile as glass, breakable upon the first obstacle .. while the one i built with her ..
it has been so strong .. so strong that it encounters no obstacles.
you threw a temper in front of me when you found out i still regarded her as a friend ..
i humoured you, hoping you would forgive me, but now that i think back.
what could you forgive me for ? not letting you control me ?

in jealousy you hate her. you say she deserves nothing she has.
you say she'll get her retribution one day.
who are YOU to say that ? how do YOU know that she didnt deserve it ?

you hate her .. for her single transgression agaisnt you.
what was wrong with what she did ? she had been in the dark of what she had done wrong ..
or maybe, at that point of time, she did have malice in her heart ..
but you never gave her a chance to show you she had turned over a new leaf.
instead, you continued putting her down, showing a fake facade in front of her while stabbing her in the back when all was dark.
i feel like kneeling in front of her and apologize for everything that i have done, but its too late now, all just too late.

im guilty. im a traitor. im not worthy for her to call me her friend.
she never tried to on purpose make me feel bad. you did.
you told me to get lost when it suited you.
you begged me to be around when you wanted it.
like a dog i followed you.

that day .. on the one day i knew that whatever facades could be dropped and all would be meaningless ..
she still cared. she comforted me. she tried her best to help me.
but you .. you .. you gave a simple glance, and cast me aside to pursue your own wants.
how long would it have taken to show your nonexistant concern ?
you could have lied. just for that one last time.
she knew that you hated her. she knew i listened to you.
she knew she could have stepped on me and laughed on that day,
but instead, she cared.

you never wanted to help me. never. you let me help you out of the worst times of your life,
but you never helped me in my simplest problems.
you put me down when it suited you,
pretended to lift me up when everyone else did.

i need confirmation.
i feel worthless. ive hurt everyone who truly cared.
ive tried my best to love those who never loved back.
i hope you get what you deseve soon.
you who wallow in your own pool of pity, thinking everyone should love you,
because YOU are the one who has gone through all the suffering,
because YOU are the one that knows all pain.
let me tell you something, you know NOTHING.
but she does. she knows the pain of being alone,
the pain of not knowing who to trust,
the pain of wanting to turn back the clock so much ..

you try to exclude me in everything you do,
you try to get everyone to exclude me,
while pretending youre trying to help me.
i just want to start a new life.
one that you wont mar.
why wont you just let me do that ?
you have to appear in everything that i do.
in the one place where i had hoped so badly i could find consolence ..
find the answer why i still wanted you to accept me so badly,
youre there, excluding me again.

please, someone, tell me.
tell me you truly care.
tell me youre not pretending to care.
tell me ..
tell me you care for me.
tell me youre truly my friend.

if anyone could just say that they are my friend for who i am,
through all my darkest days,
like how she did ..
then perhaps i wouldnt be a meaningless existence after all.

shermay is starting a new life.
from today onwards, shermay will be a positive person.
she will work hard in school and be the pride of her teachers.
she will try her best to help all her friends in times of need.
she will try her best to give good advise to all friends who need any.
she will do well in school and be put on honour roll.
she will treat all her friends better, even daryl teo.
she will be dedicated to her church.
she will try even harder to be more Christ like.
she will be more dedicated to her ccas.
she will do her best in everything she does.
she will be succesful in everything she does and likes.
she will start a job and be successful in that.

shermay.

its funny the things you find when youre cleaning the house.
a monopoly game i thought was burned .. a huge teddy bear the size of adrielle ..
well. i wasnt exactly cleaning. i was looking for a sleeping bag.
spent the whole night and day. those who think they know what fustration is ..
omaewa zenzen wakanai.
you guys dont know anything yet.

hell ive just been overloaded by shoes.

i stepped into the store room, touched a box, and in true blue cartoon fashion ..
a pile of shoes landed on me.
when my parents return from bangkok, my mums gonna find herself less ninty nine pairs of shoes ..
converted in a few hundred dollars cash at a garage sale.
of course, she wont know about the cash .. =)

i hate my marks i tell you.
i hate them.
ihatethem.
IHATETHEM.
IHATETHEM.
IHATETHEM.
IHATETHEM !!

is it a popular opinion that i have split personality ??
or is any individual of that opinion ??
daryl, i know you are =)

for an unaccountable reason, ive been sandwiching my thumb between two of my fingers and waving it around as i listen to music.
the plain symbolic significance of it seriously freaks me out.
i need a psychiatrist.

hmm .. a test i have just taken seems to have the opinion that i am 100% a paranoid schizo.
now, isnt that just lovely ??
it ties in with the test varsha did for me which produced the answer ..
"i dance the macarena because the voices tell me to"
as if the illness itself is not enough of a terror ..
youre telling me it further sends me spiralling down the depression chute by making me do ..
the MACARENA ??

and as the voices in my head tells me to jump off the building ..
i feel my feet walking towards to ledge ..
briefly .. i feel the wind upon my face ..
this time .. i wont be called a coward ..
this time .. i will do it ..
i close my eyes. i breathe.
i jump ! ..

and land with a bump on the floor as my heroic leap of faith has landed me ..
in the world of the living as i arise from my sleep ..

how lame. this further proves the point that i cant be an author ..

there was once a girl called min li.
she had a sick mind, and was enamoured of buffaloes.
her strong fist guarenteed her protection against anything her adoring fans could set upon her.
she was blessed with a beautiful face thanks to her wonderful genes.
she was my daughter.

she was also my ahmah.
her uncle is jonathan leong, who is dating a guy called ryan.
her aunties are tracy loh and lindsay chong [ maybe ?? ]
she was adopted.

her occupation is a toilet cleaner at smh.
her ambition is to go to ping yi secondary.
she calls me okasan.
and she might have another adopted brother soon [ hint !! =) ]
she is looking for a father.
pray she doesnt find one.

this report was typed by;
madam chelsea ice ireland.
mother of minli.

no slippers. never again. no.
im starting to wonder if theres any skin left on my feet.
no. from now on, its strictly converse and sandals for me.

at krissbees yesterday, i officially declared myself a pig.
on account of the amount of food i was eating.
and it seems i have also turned into 'madam'
courtesy of our beloved daryl .. who couldnt miss the opportunity to brand me such in the skit yesterday ..
and sam .. who gave him the opportunity ..
and jon .. who crystallized the whole thing through his bow of respect ..
HE DIDNT EVEN GET MY SURNAME RIGHT WTH !!

so .. putting two and two together .. i am now madam pig.
any shuai guys with the surname pig ??
guess not.

[ and so .. i will remain plain mdm until someone comes along .. ]

grad is over, i wont see my friends again.
moyiichido, i just want to wreck havoc at jie jie nicole's shop again ..
moyiichido, i just want to muss steven's hair again ..
moyiichido, i just want to be with all of them again.

grad .. to andre, marcus, erwin, etc.etc. good job with the break dancing !! =)
to all those who sang the grad song with me .. lets hate faith hill together !!
to mus .. congrats on being crowned ms temasek !!
to michelle .. sexy dancing !!
to siying .. GO GOH SIYING !! great line dancing !!
to erwin .. GO ERWIN !! ERWIN FAN CLUB !! =)

i love my school .. mind you .. i looked super stupid in grad clothes ..
wanted to do my hair .. BUT ..

JOSHUA LOOKED SO DAMN SHUAI IN GRAD CLOTHES !!
SIYING LOOKED SO CUTE !! JAP SCHOOLGIRL !!
MR DE LOOKED HOT !! LOL !!
I LOOKED STUPID !! WOOTS !! WOOTS !!

hahas .. erm .. okay .
to someone im super pissed at ..
i have lots of regrets in my six years of this school.
one of my largest regrets was not being someone worthy of your tears.
we could all see ..
your tears werent for us ..
just your own selfish desires.

How You Life Your Life

You have a good sense of self control and hate to show weakness.You say whatever is on your mind. Other people's reactions don't phase you.You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences.Some of your past dreams have disappointed you, but you don't let it get you down.

went out with varsha and her mum to shop for grad clothes yesterday.
we hopped from place to place. ATE CHOCOLATE FONDUE, YEAH !!
but my mum still wont pay.
forget it. i will sort it out myself. since when could i EVER rely on her ?? NEVER.

TODAY WAS FUN. had a farewell party.
6H was putting all sorts of RUBBISH into a cup of bandung.
and daring people to drink it. i took a sip. GAGGED AND ALMOST THREW UP.
but got two dollars for it.
marcus vomitted TWICE. go marcus !! siying has good taste !! =).
spent most of the day practising acapella.
i hate you faith hill.

okay. i saw this car called the audi TT claude or something in the papers.
and i saw my friend said his mum is about to buy one...
i dont even know if its released yet.
hmmm. im a car dunce... i only know the expensive ones...
so someone tell me...
IS AUDI TT A GOOD CAR ??
from what i see in the papers... ILIKEILIKE!! =)

we... lost. oh well, it was expected.
how long did we practise? like a few hours?
and HALF the time we werent even concentrating.
for some reason, me and mc turned up loking like we were attending a funeral.
ALL BLACK. hahas. even winston and jy didnt look like that.

oh well. it was a memory.
the song qing tian now formed an attachment with me.
now that grad is so near, i feel rather lost.
i know ill miss everyone so much.
esp those in my flea market group.

the words spoken by sasuke [ and quoted a mil times by our mc ] are wise.

'it painful because of having ties...
how could you ever understand how it feels to lose them ?'

and yes... if i had never formed these attachments
would i care about losing them?

ill miss all of you.
i wish we continued the same class into sec school.
but if we werent going to be seperated,
would we have treasured all these times we had together ?

'to me, its a tie i finally made...'

went to winstons house for singing practise yesterday.
it was fun. played around with the love calculator.
ALOT of weird combinations came up...
but more or less we did our thing as we sang.

winston played maple...
jy sent smses to her numeruos bfs...
me and mc fought for the psp...
i read... and tried to push the damn mc off the bed.
unhappy, he pushed back.
may i remind you, he has his very painful two finger punch on his side?

played darts. i won all by about a kilometer to a mile or so.
raided winstons biscuits while gossiping crap.
went back at about six thirty. jy's mum fetched her home.
and i took the bus back with mc.
slept at about five thirty that night for no reason.
just couldnt get to sleep.

and today. nothing eventful happened.
of course, there was the incident at the coffee shop.
dora took the class photos...
it was circulated around...
now i seem to have a 'bf'.
i assure you. i DO NOT.
the general opinion was, "not bad la, not bad. "
YOUR HEAD LA. I GOT NO BF LA.

oh, and lindsay thought me a new way to say 'F YOU'
two fingers held up,
palm facing self.
no, it doesnt mean cheese.

got through the auditions and merged with mc's group.
now it's winston, jy, mc and me.
it was and exhausting day. had to chase after jy who wanted to back out...
as well as emcee for the grad vid with joshua.

after school went with jy and nikki to tm to watch material girls.
not bad. it's a bimbo show. i'm not a bimbo, mind.
so tired now.

ever since stepping out of the freezing cinema,
my toes on my left foot seemed to be sprained.
oh fantastic fantastic.
hope it won't hamper my trying to memorize the lyrics for practise session at winston's house tmr.

as i stare out the window, i question.
what was it all for?
the anger, the harsh, cutting words, the attempts at mind twisting.
it was all so pointless.

i'm so tired of it all.
all my life, doing things i regret... knowing there's no way i can go back and change it.
maybe i'm just an ass and don't even realise it.
maybe i hurt people by being an ass.
maybe i shouldn't even be typing this.
maybe i should have been cast into oblivion from the start.

i'm starting to wonder if i had ever brought true happiness to anyone.
or whether the happiness had only been acheived with relief at my turned back.
there's too many maybes.
too many questions.

right now, i want to know if anyone hates me.
i think alot of them do.
too many questions.
no answers.

some talk about pain, dillemmas.
yet in their words i hear hidden malice.
maybe it's all a conspiracy.
maybe.
maybe.

crapcrapcrapcrap.
vk and lindsay are at this leadership camp with.
ryan chan. for those of you who don't know who he is. he is this guy whom EVERYONE thought.
I had a thing for. those who believe.
GO DIE.

just great. hope he never goes within another twenty kilometers of them.
oh. and talked to this girl jasmine yee over the phone.
she sounds cool =)

MUCH cooler than vk in ANY CASE.
ISN'T THAT RIGHT VK??
oh... and apparently they've been talking nonsense.

i'm jealous that they get to go to mix with such cool people.
BUT. jealousy ENDS there.
LINDSAY CHONG MING JING.
THE NEXT TIME I SEE YOU.
YOU.
ARE.
DEAD.
I. WILL. KILL.
YOU.

oh. shermay takes a voodoo doll of jy. shermay puts it in a boiling hot pan of oil.
shermay watches in satidfaction as it deep fries.

ouch. my nose HURTS.
and i can't breathe.
I HATE YOU HAZE.

when did everything around me change, without me even realising?
maybe i've just been detached for far too long.
maybe i don't even belong.
maybe i don't even know what i'm doing here.

shut up. get lost. so bloody unpredictable. the world doesn't revolve around you.
you can't get everything you want, whenever you want. i hope you get that.
don't give me your crap. just get lost. don't kid yourself anymore.
i don't know if i hate you, or just plain pity you.

am i talking to myself?

i wandered around, deliberately missing my stop, riding the bus for ten additional stops no apparent reason.
what am i living for? would you know i disappeared?
what would change?
can i go back to being dead after being alive?
and yet, was i ever really alive?
what's the meaning of life, anyway?

cry as if you're hurt.
smile as if you mean it.
shout as if you're angry.
love as if you even know what it means.

okay...
today's pics.
or i'll run the risk of getting nagged at again...





heh... the mushroom blocks...
took them in such a way it looks like their falling...
HEH. in a moving bus also eh...
i'm so talented men...=)










group photo. AGAIN, i couldn't be in it because i was taking the photos...
so sad...
our siying looks so pretty! mc looks very... erm... smart? steven looks cute! varsha... no comment. HAHAS.










this pic. looks retarded.
talk about bad camera moments...







okay. not many pics to post this time.
some of the pics sucked.
some were repititions.
photography wasn't allowed in most of the places.
again, all photos are copyright, hor.

postponed photos. yesterday in science center. group photo.
I HAD TO TAKE THE PHOTO SO COULDN'T BE IN IT.
heck. the downfall of being their bloody photographer.
hmph.








dry ice on water! cool, right? hahas... =)













hahas... our very own mrs stanford raffles!













hahas. here's the simple life. beautiful scenery?
as beautiful as it can get in the science center...
hahas. sometimes, i wish i lived in a farm...
HAHAS!!









hahas. our group star!!
as you can see... SOME PEOPLE'S FINGERS
ARE SO NICE
I'M JEALOUS!!
HAHAS!! =)





okay. ALL this photos are under copyright.
no photos are to be used without prior consent of shermay.
and you must put credits HOR.
hahas! =)
actually... only posted this cause nagged at to do so hor...

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