seriously screwed angel and mortal today.
half the class knew their angels less than an hour later.
the other half found out in the next hour.
lee sheng is a big hit with the boys, esp with mr zhekai.
had to pay thirty dollars out of own pocket to teacher cause i forgot to ask mum for money.
with wallet hurting so much, theres no wonder im in no mood to blog.
pray pray pray pray that tania can come to my school for the softball match tom.

guess what.
i officially have the flu. but its clearing up.

"i felt every teardrop when in the darkness you cried,
and i strove to remind you that for those tears i died."
theres a limit to how long tears can be held back.

and its hard to believe its done. after so long, finally done.

sometimes i just have to learn to let go.
its been confusing.

the day has been terrible.
and its been a rough week.

im in desperate need for a long, long, long, LONG holiday.

p/s.
priya just chatted with me from melbourne.
its their freaking school hols there.
$%^&* !!

im sick of being the most unbeautiful person in my class, team and school.
yet, on another note, i love ahs and 1Goh7 ! =)

its been a crazy day packed with fun and laughs.
i think im getting used to ahs life.
then again, i hope i dont turn racist.
cause they're a couple of them in my school.

and so i make plans.
and so i dont seem to prepare for the plans.
and so i make a resolution to think on the spot.
and so i copy my friends homework.
and so i plan not to leave things to the last minute again.
and so i repeat the cycle again.

its not always about the broken heart.
some things cant be undone.

sleep deprivation.
blistered covered feet.
overload of homework i cannot cope with.
im still hanging on.

not with utmost certainty but diluted recognition.
past triumphs help, but dont guarantee.
the feeling of regret.
and worthlessness.

- do i sound emo ? -
- screw that emo poet in me -

I LOVE YOU MIDOU BAN !!

i think im sick la.
it was the rain.
getting drenched four days in a row isnt healthy you know.
feel damn cold la.
and i cant stop speaking in chinese.
wth is ahs doing to me ??

im not surviving very well.
so much homework.
have to rush out the history project or im gonna lose ten percent of my CA.
waking up early, studying till so late, then with bball.
cant take it. ohmytian. can i quit ?
theres even practise TMR la !!
this is really affecting my schoolwork.
since the teachers seem to find it their lifes joy to pile homework la.
i even saw my ke xing today. wth.

okay.
i want to transfer to acs(i)

rgs vs ahs today.
what was meant to be a friendly match got out of control when the rgs players started playing dirty and finally resulted in them knocking out pei ying's teeth.
my team mates were so pissed, and all started crying.
they are so closely knitted ! =)
if you dont play fair, it doesnt matter whether you win, or how good you are.

on another note.
got drenched AGAIN today.
thats like, four days in a row.
im sure everyone knows the REASON.
ARGH.

i hate the feeling of relying on or owing people whom i fear most to become.
i hate the feeling of having so much undone, the feeling of dread.
i accept the latter to rid myself of the former.

070107.
i congratulate mell, liang fu, joo keng and the young baby grace on their baptism today.
i congratulate cym on five wonderful years.
its been a wonderful day. =).

to sum up the past few days.
i was elected unanimously the class rep, more affectionately known as chairman.
i was accepted into bball, AHS.
i had a few practises.
i made alot of friends.
i just had practise and im so damn tired i cant be bothered to type anymore.

and i realised AHS is affiliated to ..
drum roll ..
SAJC.

yes. i wonder how many people have seen the overloaded script of paper i call my thanksgiving.
but of course. we all have so much to thank God for.
and i wonder how many people has seen the even more packed script that i call my new year resolutions.
and how many actually believe ill carry them out.
yes well. as adam khoo says, the best way to ensure you carry out what you planned is to tell everyone about it.
puts pressure, see ?
after all the crap has been extracted from the list, this is what remains.

-to study hard and do well in my new school. and well MEANS well. like, all A1s.
-to be a better befriender and make people feel more wecome.
-heck, to be a befriender in every way, reflected in my life.
-to stop grappling for popularity by being so wary about gossip.
-to start being a more GIVING person. rightttt.
-IMPORTANT - to go for ALL cca practises and get some EXCERCISE and STOP RELYING ON MY METABOLISM RATE.
-GROW TALLER.
-STOP BEING LATE FOR EVERYTHING DAMMIT.
-to know when sadam died [ ie, current affairs ]
-to have a stronger faith in God.
-to be a NICER person. YES.

yes. anything else that needs to be up there ?
2007 has been great so far.
lets hope the rest of the year follows suit.

as the year pasts, perhaps one should reflect upon what happened before.
yes. glad i spent my new year in church today / yesterday.
meaningful and made me see much more.
when i went up on stage to share my testimonial, perhaps ive told more than i ever did.
when i was discussing among the groups, perhaps i learnt more than i ever did.
thank you Adrielle and Sork Chin, as usual, for being great cgls.

as i reflect. 2006 was a year full of bumps.
sometimes when you get what you want, you see the other side of the coin and realise.
it wasnt that fantastic.
people will always be people.
ive swerved off the track of God so many times.
as Brenda says. the earth has rotated around the sun one more time.

and ive turned a hundred eighty degrees from my past.
there are some things that i will never let go off, like Lindsay.
for others, those that cause me anguish, may they fade far away from my mind.

2006 has been hell.
lets hope 2007 will be the light.

new start.
better not waste it.

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